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A Young Life Shining
by James Webb

August 2015. After two years of on- and off- research and writing I am happy to have finally received printed copies of the biography of my younger son, Lucas. The book is titled "A Young Life Shining" and has been distributed to immediate and wider family members. For the interest of my friends, the following is from the Preface.

Lucas James Webb was born on the fifteenth of July 1972 and died tragically on the twenty second of March 1981. He was my son.
Lucas was almost nine years of age when he died and his siblings and cousins were similarly young. For this reason their memories of him will be limited by their age and perspective at the time and so I have chosen to write his story from the the wider perspective of a parent, his father.

DESPERATION ALBUM - Lyrics

Desperation
by James Webb.  © 2007. Amadeus WAM
 
One more lost opportunity,
In the expeditions of this heart.
Sudden flutter, then a flat line.
It’s the desperation keeps it apart
 
Rush hour drivers, hearts ever lonely.
Fuelled by desire, held in their place.
Furtive glances between fellow travellers.
Risking it all to get out of the race.
 
Chorus
It’s insane, this idea I’m letting you go.
Almost don’t know you,
Like a picture left behind.
Someone I was hoping you might be,
And shine a light on me.
I’ve lost track of all these dreams that had their time,
In my mind.
 
Impossible needs, sheer desperation.
Living in hope, the more you’ve got to lose.
Black as the night, deep as eternity.
To live or to die, not much to choose.
 
(Chorus)
 
It’s insane,
This idea I’m letting you go.
Almost don’t know you,
Just a picture left behind.
Someone I was hoping you might be,
And shine your pretty little light on me.
I’ve lost track of all these dreams that took their time,
In my mind
.



You Don’t Understand
by Cath Campbell & James Webb. © 2004, 2006.  Amadeus WAM
 
Where’s your Mummy gone,
Youngest of the four,
Little girl.
Daddy has to manage at home,
Oh no.
Suddenly a scare,
Mummy nearly dies,
Your sister’s crying.
You’ve got to stay with your Grandma,
Alone.
 
Precious little boy,
Lying very still,
He could be sleeping.
He’s not coming home again,
Good bye.
Mummy’s on her bed,
Big brother’s with his mates,
It’s called ‘grieving’.
Daddy’s on a date with your sister,
Oh no.
 
(Chorus) You don’t understand,
What’s happening,
Where you belong,
And why you feel so alone.
No one hears you cry,
Takes time to look in your eyes.
Why doesn’t somebody notice,
You don’t understand.
  
High school comes in time,
Things start looking up,
You’re really growing.
Life is something more than a dream,
At last.
Then father’s big deceit,
Mother cannot cope,
Perhaps she’s dying.
You’ve got to stay with your Grandma,
Again.
 
(Chorus)
 
You don’t understand,
What’s happening.
You don’t understand,
Where you belong.
You don’t understand,
Why you’re alone
You don’t understand,
Ooh, ooh, ooh.
 
You don’t understand,
What’s happening,
Where you belong,
And why you feel so alone.
No one hears you cry,
Takes time to look in your eyes.
Why doesn’t somebody notice,
You don’t understand.




Ecstasy
by James Webb. © 2007   Amadeus WAM
 
In ecstasy, I call his name,
That moment I can’t feel the pain.
Thank you God for giving me,
This graceful rush that sets me free.
Floating above the darkness,
I touch something inside, divine.
A penitent hope that out there,
Happiness and peace gonna find me some time.
 
I work each day and then I drop,
Holds back the losses until I stop.
TV at night so my brain’s stone dead,
I wait for sleep, my gut full of dread.
But floating above the sadness,
I touch something inside, divine.
A penitent hope that out there,
Happiness and peace gonna find me some time.
 
Bridge
I know there’s nobody up there,
Just some crazy part of myself.
Pig-headed fool who won’t give in,
Dammed yet I will survive.
 
In ecstasy, I love them all,
My own dear ones, their beck and call.
A new soul mate comes at a cost,
You won’t win back what you have lost.
Easing  towards the darkness,
While the angels are still all mine.
A penitent prayer that out there,
Happiness and peace will find me in time.
Love’s Not Worth It
by James Webb.  © 2008. Amadeus WAM
 
Another night,
Of knowing love’s not worth it,
Never was.
Got herself in deep again,
Going to cry herself to sleep again.
Yet nothing compares,
To his scent on her bed,
Dreams in her head,
When he was here.
 
Another day,
Swearing that she’s over it,
Never again.
Wanting someone too much,
Anyone to ease that longing crush.
And oh the despair.
Knowing she broke all her rules,
She’s been a fool,
‘Cause love’s not worth it.

(Bridge) Can’t look at the telephone,
Without thinking his name.
First thing checks her messages,
Hope lives on but restrained.
She could call him,
Be free of this misery.
But she imagines his cautious inflection,
Just can’t face the rejection.

Easy times,Until she thinks about him,
There’s no pain.
An hour or more of blissing,
Not worried something’s missing.
Then damn him he’s there,
Pictures of what might have been,
Lost in a dream,
And love’s not worth it.
 
(Repeat Bridge)
 
Another night,
Knowing love’s not worth it,
Never was.
Got herself in deep again,
Going to cry herself to sleep again.
Then damn him he’s there,
Shadows of what might have been,
Lost in a dream,
And love’s not worth it.



Elizabeth
(One Touch)

by James Webb.  © 2003, 2010. Amadeus WAM 
 
How could you know,
Hardly more than a girl,
Gentle touch of your hand.
All at once,
My dead heart came alive,
Something you wouldn’t understand.
 
On the stage,
Playing husband and wife,
Excruciating love scenes.
Fed you dead lines,
Yet you never held back,
Till nothing was quite as it seemed.

(Chorus) Oh dear, Elizabeth,
Ten years to fortress this heart.
Your innocent, well-meaning gesture,
Just one touch the walls fell apart.
 
For my role,
I was poorly equipped.
Love unrequited too long.
Slave to passion,
I learned to survive,
Holding it in, being strong.
 
Well cast you were.Those who knew you all said,
Big heart, caring soul.
Blind before,
Now some things I saw,
In your eyes the weight of the load.

(Chorus) Oh dear, Elizabeth,
How well did you fortress your heart?
Could I have repaid,
What you taught me?
Before your big heart fell apart.
 
Oh dear, Elizabeth,
Ten years to fortress this heart.
Your innocent, well-meaning gesture,
Just one touch the walls fell apart.
Just one touch the walls fell apart.



Milkshake
by James Webb.  © 2003, 2010. Amadeus WAM  

Finishing my coffee,
Above the Blue Street frantic,
You walk into the restaurant,
Looking to stop traffic.
 
Yeah, it’s been a while,
I’ve been doing OK.
But now you’ve set my heart aflame again,
You’ll steal it away.

(Chorus) Inside me the burdens of my past,
Suddenly melt away.
No more regrets
Or dark clouds that separate me.
Just the heart-stopping thrill of the moment,
And the innocent anticipation,
Of a future full of possibility.
 
Waiter sets down your chocolate milkshake.
Fluted glass takes me back,
Two kids in a milk bar,
Circa nineteen sixty three.
 
Look back up and the woman serene is gone.
In her place, pony tail and a rosy face.
The vision of my,
Teenage hopes and dreams.
 
(Chorus)


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